Yesterday I got to spend the day with my parents, something that is more and more precious to me now that I’m older. My dad captured some lovely shots:
When I was younger, it was easy not to take ownership of my own happiness. The truth is, we don’t get to, or feel like we get to, make a lot of important life decisions when we are young. We have to go to school, and we have to listen to what our parents tell us. There often isn’t a choice. So when everything isn’t rainbows and unicorns, we blame everything and everyone around us, because it’s sometimes easier to feel powerless and unhappy, yet blameless, than to admit the hard truth that no one else can make us happy but ourselves. In the past year, especially the last few months, I’ve come to realize that happiness can be difficult. We all know that if we want material goods, we need to study hard, work hard, and make money. But we often don’t apply the same simple principal to less tangible things like happiness. Sometimes I really want to just sit back, go with the flow, and automatically feel happy, but unfortunately I think happiness is a choice that I have to conscious make, and it’s not always an easy choice. I’m still figuring it out, and by “it”, I mean absolutely everything in life. But I’m slowly becoming better at finding happiness in small things.
Top & Skirt: Zara
Cardigan: Urban Outfitters
Booties: Steve Madden